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I’m staring out the window, and I can see the moon.What am I going to do now? I can’t sleep. It’s my second night in detox, and they’ve stopped giving me Ativan.I’m no longer a seizure risk, they say.That’s too bad — another night of benzodiazepine-laced sleep would’ve been nice.Especially in this hellhole.I have a […]
For anyone with alcohol use disorder, quitting drinking can feel like a daunting prospect. While early recovery can be uncomfortable and it may seem like progress is slow, the healing begins as soon as the drink is put down. Aside from heavy hitters like lower risk of cancer, heart, and liver disease (and for some, […]
I never thought I had much of a sweet tooth. So when I stopped drinking, I was surprised at the amount of cookies, candy, and ice cream I was plowing through each day, particularly at night. I couldn’t seem to get enough sugar, which was odd considering I typically passed on dessert. Many people who […]
When I had my first drink at the age of 16, I didn’t know that I would become gravely addicted to the substance I was experimenting with. But I had received warnings, including the following advice from my mother to discourage my nail-biting habit: “People with oral fixations become alcoholics. Don’t drink.” But other than […]
If you were faced with a fatal and progressive disease, you’d likely do everything in your power to rid yourself of it. Humans are wired to go to great lengths to avoid death, and I imagine you would, too. You’d follow your doctor’s orders, take medications, try experimental treatments, explore holistic remedies, change your diet, […]
We did it! Winter is over and just like that, it’s the first day of Spring. The days are longer, the weather is warming up and soon enough, the tulips will be blooming. However, for many people in early recovery, the change of seasons can bring about some challenges. After being shut in by the […]
Parades, corned beef, shamrocks, and wearing green are just a few ways people celebrate Ireland’s foremost patron saint, St. Patrick every year on March 17th. But the 40 shades of green and Irish dinner aside, most people mark this holiday with drinking — a lot of drinking. And that’s probably because this holiday is associated […]
The first year of sobriety is tough—no joke. In the early days of my recovery, after my alcohol withdrawal symptoms subsided and my “pink cloud” completely evaporated, I felt emptier than ever. Whether I wanted to admit it or not, a huge part of my adult life had revolved around alcohol. And suddenly, I couldn’t […]
I hate winter. Especially once January hits, and we’ve got three long months ahead and nothing but freezing forecasts and deceptive wind chills. I get blue. Really blue. Like a lot of us do: Seasonal Affective Disorder is in the DSM and while I may suffer from a touch of it, I think most of […]
The holidays. They say it’s a joyous time for family, feasts, and festive cheer. But, if you’re in recovery, it can be a time for navigating the treacherous waters of the “Holiday Bermuda Triangle.” The Bermuda Triangle, a term coined in the rooms of AA, consists of Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year’s. Three back-to-back points […]
Fatigue in early recovery is real and I forgot how absolutely drained I felt all the time till my friend complained of exhaustion when she was counting days. For anyone beginning the journey of sobriety, physical and mental fatigue can feel overwhelming and unmanageable. You’ve taken an incredible first step by choosing recovery, but early […]