The Impossible Question: When Will I Feel Better?

When will I feel better?

When people first get sober, they often ask, “when will I feel better?” This is a very logical question because when people don’t feel good, they obviously want to feel better. And almost always, early recovery doesn’t feel good and people want to feel better right away. Unfortunately, there’s no straightforward answer to this frequently […]

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Breaking Through Boredom in Early Recovery

Recovery Boredom

Early sobriety is tough for so many reasons. Not only did I have to adjust to a new life without alcohol, I also had to heal from two decades of heavy drinking. However, after my withdrawal from alcohol subsided, I was faced with an unexpected contingency I was not prepared for: boredom. Amongst other symptoms […]

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Staring Out the Window While in Detox

Detox

I’m staring out the window, and I can see the moon.What am I going to do now? I can’t sleep. It’s my second night in detox, and they’ve stopped giving me Ativan.I’m no longer a seizure risk, they say.That’s too bad — another night of benzodiazepine-laced sleep would’ve been nice.Especially in this hellhole.I have a […]

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The Functioning Alcoholic Paradox

Functioning Alcoholic

At the end of my drinking, there was no longer anything fun about being a functioning alcoholic. I had crossed over the threshold of functioning into complete alcoholic dysfunction quite quickly. Yet, I continued to fool myself into thinking I was  “functioning” because I could pay my mortgage on time, look put together (at least some of the time), and hold down a job.

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April is Alcohol Awareness Month

April Awareness

When I had my first drink at the age of 16, I didn’t know that I would become gravely addicted to the substance I was experimenting with. But I had received warnings, including the following advice from my mother to discourage my nail-biting habit: “People with oral fixations become alcoholics. Don’t drink.”  But other than […]

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